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[ Blade goes quiet because Lan knows how long it's been before someone has said that (literally never, actually) and he doesn't care to bother to say things like 'don't pity me' because he's more of a depressed man than a prideful one. ]

I remember waking up.

...Because of your reaction. It sticks with me.

Though, after what happened today, what some people have said I can barely recall.

[ He definitely had an unfortunate episode that affected his recollection of today's events, so it can effect recent memories...debilitating mental episodes for the win. ]

I might recall it better after some time.