[ Blade watches her, before just...relaxing a smidgen, letting out a sigh; as someone who is weary of the state of his own life all the time? He feels that emotion she happens to exude is entirely relatable. ]
...No other choice. As for here, we can find ourselves faced with a fate worse than death, otherwise.
[ He remembers hearing the drama and whatnot...witnessing it. The words that fell from a young woman he hardly knew or cared for did not resonate. Nero was far more similar to him, and yet... ]
Such notions aren't unfamiliar to me. Particularly the desire to wipe one's life from existence for any reason.
We're likely to see a repeat of it. [ As usual he will even state in that blunt way of his: ] However, I won't complain if there's a severe reduction in foolish semantics, dramatics, or whatever nonsense.
[ Rodya's words don't find any judgment from him; she could have been cold and he would not have judged it, which probably says a lot about him, but it's fine. ]
You understand that is asking for far too much.
[ Blade says wryly, looking at the drink right in front of him after she says that, expression unreadable for a moment.
'Make more memories', was it? He wonders, if someone had said that to Nero, if he would have acted differently. And Diluc, well...he doesn't think anything could have changed what happened, though he has thought about it constantly. But, he lets it all pass. ]
...isn't fun more adequate for you? [ Blade lets out a small laugh, a little off. ] I can't guarantee anything, Rodya. Not someone like me. I've had the exact kind of goal you could never stand, for so long, and I am hardly ever in my right mind.
Even so, I believe now...I want more time, even if that is impossible. To make it last. Even though I was never supposed to be granted this amount of time in the first place. Perhaps, even though I have sinned, I've only grown more selfish. However, I can't bring myself to care. Spending time with you has become memorable. I wonder, though...if you might find that amusing, coming from me?
Oh well, can't hurt to try, right? Ask and ye shall receive, stuff like that.
[ Better to ask and see how it goes rather than not. She sighs and turns around so she can lean her back on the counter, elbows up on the surface as she looks over at him. ]
Don't tell me all this is getting to you too now.
[ Not to dismiss him or anything but -- people opening up with serious things more and more these days... it leaves her a little concerned in a place like this, where emotions are allegedly a huge thing. ]
I dunno, you don't seem like you're out of sorts to me -- but I truck around all day in a bus full of some of the weirdest people, all designated "Sinners", with something to hide that the Boughs won't let us keep buried like it deserves... killing and getting killed for a day job.
So you know, maybe my bar is the one that's weird. A lot of you definitely tell me like it is.
[ Blade never thought he was immune to the situation as a whole, no. Not him, never him.
He remembers his initial reaction when he point-blank attacked one of the Senior Crew in his wild, uncontrolled impatience. He never took the situation well. At the thought, amusement arises with ease...still, getting overly emotional and attached is a foolish idea, isn't it? ]
...You're used to even more abnormal attitudes. And even possibly stranger personalities. I wonder, when you say that the Boughs won't let it all be kept buried, you mean your secrets eventually are on display, hm?
Whatever the case, I suppose there are a good number who are straight-forward. Or, they appear to be.
They were. I know more about some of my fellow Sinners than they would've ever wanted me to know, and I'm sure they know more about me than I would've cared to let them know either.
You experienced a fraction of it.
[ Her neighbourhood massacre, her internal feelings... the kinds of things she would never let see the light of day, normally, because she likes being this carefree personality, this devil may care attitude. ]
[ He remembers that...the feelings she had, striking down that putrid woman. The wretched aftermath. It's strange, that had been more than a week ago, but the recollection still feels raw. Or maybe, it stuck with him because of the intensity, the bleakness, and who it involved. ]
I did. When...those memories were on display, without regard for what either one of us thought or felt about it.
[ Another recollection as he takes pause, taking another sip of the drink before him. ]
Instead of the phenomena we experience here being the case, you're saying in your homeworld those Boughs caused the very same. To think, you had already experienced as much...
...Though, I don't suppose you managed to convince anyone of those people to join you in some sort of leisure activity, such as attending a Spa?
Yeah, well! Isn't life like that? Without regard for whatever we feel about it. We live what we've got, so why not try to enjoy what I can get out of it?
Guess it makes me a prepared person, whether you think that's a good thing or a bad thing.
[ At least, materially -- she doesn't ever have to feel bad about that. Physical wellness is her right as far as she's concerned, something that was deprived of her her entire life by others. Emotional wellness, well -- she did that to herself.
She laughs a little at the last. ]
Man, if I could, I would though. Being travelers on a bus doesn't really get us a lot of opportunities for good rest stops, though maybe now and then I get to convince Verg to take us out on a company dinner.
[ Blade finishes his drink, and simply has another to replace it as she speaks, though he does eventually look back on over at her. Then, he sips at his new drink as he pauses for a moment of consideration. ]
Being prepared means you have less opportunity for weaknesses to catch up to you. It's practical...which means I am one who would not say it is a drawback for you.
[ He doesn't think it's just on a material level, in his own personal opinion. It's not with the air of any paranoia whatsoever, which isn't exactly the same he could say would apply to every person. ]
...This Verg is your leader? And a relatively generous one? Or does he simply have monetary value you can convince him to spend?
Thanks for the positive encouragement, babes. Wouldn't really have expected it from you, but I'm not complaining.
[ She remembers their first meeting and how tough shit he was. Unfortunately for him, she does consider it a success that he's warmed up to her (???). Pest behaviour. ]
He's like our supervisor, yeah! And Dante is our manager. Verg is kinda like, our babysitter from the main company, while Dante is the one that works more directly with us on the missions that Vergie hands off. That make sense?
[ So he's like, the Elio, sort of. ]
He's suuuch a hardass, but if you ask me, it's not too hard to convince him if you know how to talk to him.
[ Rodion singlehandedly has unfathomable power just for being able to bully Verg into things because half of the squad is absolutely terrified of Verg otherwise / he's the only person capable of making them behave. ]
...Not in the habit of it either, so consider it a one-time happenstance.
[ Blade has warmed up to her...even if someone asked him as much in exactly those words he'd probably glare at them so hard a volcano would spontaneously erupt because he's fun like that. Pestya real.
As for the other matter, there is a slight nod to the question given to him.
Dante and Verge (Vergie) are two who seem rather important for the obvious reasons given. He makes small comparisons; Elio to Vergie, and potentially Dante to Kafka, though he's not going to automatically assume that for certain. ]
What do you mean? Continue to...perhaps, convince him by badgering, you mean?
[ Well, at this point...Blade isn't going to do much deterring here. He couldn't keep her from being herself in the beginning, and is pretty much used to the way she is.
Something he never would have imagined being the case when they first met. Another look of amusement flickers when she says 'stop' and then the rest, though. ]
I will grant reprieve to acknowledge that I believe you would pester with tact; Silver Wolf could stand to pick up such a skill. [ But that is a tall order. ] I suppose it isn't too surprising that with a highly competent worker, even a difficult individual would find themselves hard pressed to ignore requests.
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...No other choice. As for here, we can find ourselves faced with a fate worse than death, otherwise.
[ He remembers hearing the drama and whatnot...witnessing it. The words that fell from a young woman he hardly knew or cared for did not resonate. Nero was far more similar to him, and yet... ]
Such notions aren't unfamiliar to me. Particularly the desire to wipe one's life from existence for any reason.
We're likely to see a repeat of it. [ As usual he will even state in that blunt way of his: ] However, I won't complain if there's a severe reduction in foolish semantics, dramatics, or whatever nonsense.
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Why can't people murder in a methodical and bereaucratic way, turn it into paperwork or something.
[ She's not serious, she's not THAT cold. But she's over it and that much is very palpable. ]
Don't wipe yourself out though. You're kinda fun to hang around.
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You understand that is asking for far too much.
[ Blade says wryly, looking at the drink right in front of him after she says that, expression unreadable for a moment.
'Make more memories', was it? He wonders, if someone had said that to Nero, if he would have acted differently. And Diluc, well...he doesn't think anything could have changed what happened, though he has thought about it constantly. But, he lets it all pass. ]
...isn't fun more adequate for you? [ Blade lets out a small laugh, a little off. ] I can't guarantee anything, Rodya. Not someone like me. I've had the exact kind of goal you could never stand, for so long, and I am hardly ever in my right mind.
Even so, I believe now...I want more time, even if that is impossible. To make it last. Even though I was never supposed to be granted this amount of time in the first place. Perhaps, even though I have sinned, I've only grown more selfish. However, I can't bring myself to care. Spending time with you has become memorable. I wonder, though...if you might find that amusing, coming from me?
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[ Better to ask and see how it goes rather than not. She sighs and turns around so she can lean her back on the counter, elbows up on the surface as she looks over at him. ]
Don't tell me all this is getting to you too now.
[ Not to dismiss him or anything but -- people opening up with serious things more and more these days... it leaves her a little concerned in a place like this, where emotions are allegedly a huge thing. ]
I dunno, you don't seem like you're out of sorts to me -- but I truck around all day in a bus full of some of the weirdest people, all designated "Sinners", with something to hide that the Boughs won't let us keep buried like it deserves... killing and getting killed for a day job.
So you know, maybe my bar is the one that's weird. A lot of you definitely tell me like it is.
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[ Blade never thought he was immune to the situation as a whole, no. Not him, never him.
He remembers his initial reaction when he point-blank attacked one of the Senior Crew in his wild, uncontrolled impatience. He never took the situation well. At the thought, amusement arises with ease...still, getting overly emotional and attached is a foolish idea, isn't it? ]
...You're used to even more abnormal attitudes. And even possibly stranger personalities. I wonder, when you say that the Boughs won't let it all be kept buried, you mean your secrets eventually are on display, hm?
Whatever the case, I suppose there are a good number who are straight-forward. Or, they appear to be.
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You experienced a fraction of it.
[ Her neighbourhood massacre, her internal feelings... the kinds of things she would never let see the light of day, normally, because she likes being this carefree personality, this devil may care attitude. ]
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I did. When...those memories were on display, without regard for what either one of us thought or felt about it.
[ Another recollection as he takes pause, taking another sip of the drink before him. ]
Instead of the phenomena we experience here being the case, you're saying in your homeworld those Boughs caused the very same. To think, you had already experienced as much...
...Though, I don't suppose you managed to convince anyone of those people to join you in some sort of leisure activity, such as attending a Spa?
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Guess it makes me a prepared person, whether you think that's a good thing or a bad thing.
[ At least, materially -- she doesn't ever have to feel bad about that. Physical wellness is her right as far as she's concerned, something that was deprived of her her entire life by others. Emotional wellness, well -- she did that to herself.
She laughs a little at the last. ]
Man, if I could, I would though. Being travelers on a bus doesn't really get us a lot of opportunities for good rest stops, though maybe now and then I get to convince Verg to take us out on a company dinner.
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Being prepared means you have less opportunity for weaknesses to catch up to you. It's practical...which means I am one who would not say it is a drawback for you.
[ He doesn't think it's just on a material level, in his own personal opinion. It's not with the air of any paranoia whatsoever, which isn't exactly the same he could say would apply to every person. ]
...This Verg is your leader? And a relatively generous one? Or does he simply have monetary value you can convince him to spend?
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[ She remembers their first meeting and how tough shit he was. Unfortunately for him, she does consider it a success that he's warmed up to her (???). Pest behaviour. ]
He's like our supervisor, yeah! And Dante is our manager. Verg is kinda like, our babysitter from the main company, while Dante is the one that works more directly with us on the missions that Vergie hands off. That make sense?
[ So he's like, the Elio, sort of. ]
He's suuuch a hardass, but if you ask me, it's not too hard to convince him if you know how to talk to him.
[ Rodion singlehandedly has unfathomable power just for being able to bully Verg into things because half of the squad is absolutely terrified of Verg otherwise / he's the only person capable of making them behave. ]
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[ Blade has warmed up to her...even if someone asked him as much in exactly those words he'd probably glare at them so hard a volcano would spontaneously erupt because he's fun like that. Pestya real.
As for the other matter, there is a slight nod to the question given to him.
Dante and Verge (Vergie) are two who seem rather important for the obvious reasons given. He makes small comparisons; Elio to Vergie, and potentially Dante to Kafka, though he's not going to automatically assume that for certain. ]
What do you mean? Continue to...perhaps, convince him by badgering, you mean?
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[ As usual... she is not deterred, yeah. ]
Stop. Okay, maybe! But pester him with tact, you know? And also do my job right, 'cause then he has no reason to say no.
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[ Well, at this point...Blade isn't going to do much deterring here. He couldn't keep her from being herself in the beginning, and is pretty much used to the way she is.
Something he never would have imagined being the case when they first met. Another look of amusement flickers when she says 'stop' and then the rest, though. ]
I will grant reprieve to acknowledge that I believe you would pester with tact; Silver Wolf could stand to pick up such a skill. [ But that is a tall order. ] I suppose it isn't too surprising that with a highly competent worker, even a difficult individual would find themselves hard pressed to ignore requests.
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[ That way, nobody can say no. Calculated!! ]
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...Yes, I can easily understand the concept.
It's not something everyone is adept at.
[ For example, himself. He can't very well imagine doing the same to anyone. Or if at all, successfully.
...Conversationally-speaking, anyway. ]