[ If Blade had heard this from the start of his stay here, he would have rejected it, mocked him, and even derided such words. It isn't that he has suddenly immediately turned a leaf in all of the things that he is - he has a lot wrong with him - but, he is realizing that, besides the Stellaron Hunters, he hasn't had people genuinely try to help him.
Not to say things weren't rough, that he didn't...uh, explode pretty hard here or there, or something, but the fact that he sit here and listen to it at all means something. ]
...I don't understand how it works.
[ He is curious about the more intricate details of it. ]
Recalling my memories isn't normally a good idea. It tends to exacerbate my condition.
[ Mara, that is. Granted he has other complications like phantom pains, and all that too, but Mara is at the forefront of it all. ]
Kafka had a way to suppress that condition. If there was a method I could use to do that or, in the extreme unlikelihood, be rid of it entirely, this 'tempering'...would potentially be of benefit.
'Twould be a treatment using magic. We feed the proper spell into your body in an attempt to flush out the symptoms of your condition.
[ He crosses his arms. ]
I will have to do my own research on the spell, as well as run tests to ensure that it would work and not exacerbate your symptoms. [ A pause. ] I would not run these tests on you.
The process is gradual. You likely will not feel anything new after two or three sessions.
[ There's a moment where there is a lopsided smile. ]
...Good.
[ Now he is even more inclined to accept this. Due to other personal, unhealthy reasons haven't exactly vaporized completely as of yet. He doesn't say anything else on the matter. ]
I've decided. I would like to try this method of yours out...should we both live.
After all, there is no guarantee of anything before then.
[ Blade supposes he'll be potentially mentioning this to Dan Heng.
Whatever happens, he is an important facet to his life. ]
...I don't think I deserve this much thought.
But, I know what you would say, so don't worry about wasting your breath.
[ A little sly smile. Blade is saying in his own words he is kind of grateful. He's a difficult man; and he still thinks he'll make G'raha regret his association with him, but...the red-haired man is continuously persistent in ways he is familiar with - once again - and doesn't mind too much. ]
G'raha is, in fact, about to waste his breath and go on about friendship and what it means to him, so he quickly closes his mouth just after it opens. ]
Then I will not. So, I will instead give you some parting optimism.
[ Blade looks at G'raha for a really long moment when he hears this; though he looks something like amused when he noticed that he was about to open his mouth to talk the lengths of friendship.
...He thinks, maybe, a certain someone was like that too. That person he's thinking of is no longer in the mortal coil, but that kind of exuberance matches the same kind by far. ]
I had a feeling you would say that.
Maybe things will be different now.
[ Blade then moves to the library's exit. ]
I suppose since I'll be depending upon you just a little...I'll have to remind you to do the same of me at some point.
[ He quickly leaves before he can be called a soft friend or something, but these are words that he said. ]
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Not to say things weren't rough, that he didn't...uh, explode pretty hard here or there, or something, but the fact that he sit here and listen to it at all means something. ]
...I don't understand how it works.
[ He is curious about the more intricate details of it. ]
Recalling my memories isn't normally a good idea. It tends to exacerbate my condition.
[ Mara, that is. Granted he has other complications like phantom pains, and all that too, but Mara is at the forefront of it all. ]
Kafka had a way to suppress that condition. If there was a method I could use to do that or, in the extreme unlikelihood, be rid of it entirely, this 'tempering'...would potentially be of benefit.
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[ He crosses his arms. ]
I will have to do my own research on the spell, as well as run tests to ensure that it would work and not exacerbate your symptoms. [ A pause. ] I would not run these tests on you.
The process is gradual. You likely will not feel anything new after two or three sessions.
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It's anyone's guess, really. A part of him wants to desperately recall his childhood. There is no mistaking it. There can't be. ]
Maybe not.
It's hard to tell.
...But in the worst case scenario, you could use your magic to deal with me accordingly, I assume. After all, anything can always go wrong.
Though, the fact you offered this means that you are already even mentally preparing yourself.
[ Which is pretty impressive. G'raha going to this length to lend such a hand to him...a part of him even wonders if he deserves it at all. ]
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[ His sword and shield are sturdy enough that they could withstand any attacks that Blade would send his way.
Hopefully. ]
Which is why... I want you to deliberate on this idea of mine seriously. There is no need to make a decision right this moment.
cw: suicidal ideation
...Good.
[ Now he is even more inclined to accept this. Due to other personal, unhealthy reasons haven't exactly vaporized completely as of yet. He doesn't say anything else on the matter. ]
I've decided. I would like to try this method of yours out...should we both live.
After all, there is no guarantee of anything before then.
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There is not, much less ensuring you can arrive in Eorzea safely after the fact. However... we will find a way.
[ He pauses, thoughtful. ]
If I could manage to do this for you, the difficulty of arranging it would be well worth it.
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Whatever happens, he is an important facet to his life. ]
...I don't think I deserve this much thought.
But, I know what you would say, so don't worry about wasting your breath.
[ A little sly smile. Blade is saying in his own words he is kind of grateful. He's a difficult man; and he still thinks he'll make G'raha regret his association with him, but...the red-haired man is continuously persistent in ways he is familiar with - once again - and doesn't mind too much. ]
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G'raha is, in fact, about to waste his breath and go on about friendship and what it means to him, so he quickly closes his mouth just after it opens. ]
Then I will not. So, I will instead give you some parting optimism.
[ A grin. ]
I know we can find a solution to your own issues.
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...He thinks, maybe, a certain someone was like that too. That person he's thinking of is no longer in the mortal coil, but that kind of exuberance matches the same kind by far. ]
I had a feeling you would say that.
Maybe things will be different now.
[ Blade then moves to the library's exit. ]
I suppose since I'll be depending upon you just a little...I'll have to remind you to do the same of me at some point.
[ He quickly leaves before he can be called a soft friend or something, but these are words that he said. ]
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Yeah, he can definitely depend on Blade. He knows it. ]