There's a lopsided smile that even appears, and it looks like he's staring past G'raha rather than looking at him. Gazing into the past, however dangerous for him that is. ]
I don't remember much.
Imbibitor Lunae would know. Even if he can't remember by now. But, I was his accomplice. And, it had to do with immortality...and rebirth.
Perhaps someone's life. Though, I wouldn't remember who that was, either.
You seem to have a rather… troublesome time recalling these events.
[ If it’s traumatic, that makes sense. But that smile tells G’raha that it’s a little bit more than that—or a much deeper scar than it seems on the surface. ]
[ It remains because unsettling vibes just are not going to go away after earlier's mini-shitshow. ]
My memory is not what it once was.
And it may be that way forever.
...Ever since the incident.
[ Dan Heng's is also messed up, but in a decisively different way than his - and Blade doesn't fully comprehend what exactly is going on his end regarding that, unfortunately. ]
[ Blade goes quiet because Lan knows how long it's been before someone has said that (literally never, actually) and he doesn't care to bother to say things like 'don't pity me' because he's more of a depressed man than a prideful one. ]
I remember waking up.
...Because of your reaction. It sticks with me.
Though, after what happened today, what some people have said I can barely recall.
[ He definitely had an unfortunate episode that affected his recollection of today's events, so it can effect recent memories...debilitating mental episodes for the win. ]
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There's a lopsided smile that even appears, and it looks like he's staring past G'raha rather than looking at him. Gazing into the past, however dangerous for him that is. ]
I don't remember much.
Imbibitor Lunae would know. Even if he can't remember by now. But, I was his accomplice. And, it had to do with immortality...and rebirth.
Perhaps someone's life. Though, I wouldn't remember who that was, either.
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You seem to have a rather… troublesome time recalling these events.
[ If it’s traumatic, that makes sense. But that smile tells G’raha that it’s a little bit more than that—or a much deeper scar than it seems on the surface. ]
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My memory is not what it once was.
And it may be that way forever.
...Ever since the incident.
[ Dan Heng's is also messed up, but in a decisively different way than his - and Blade doesn't fully comprehend what exactly is going on his end regarding that, unfortunately. ]
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[ How far does this extend? It sounds like it may be the full extent of Blade's memory, but he wants to make sure. ]
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[ ... ]
I can't recall much beyond vague impressions. Even worse when it gets before that point.
[ It definitely is just about the full extent of his memories. ]
There may be exceptions, at times. But, those are far and few in between.
[ And there is no guarantee he will obtain the recollection of even recalling that in the first place. It's very messy. ]
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[ And knowing that Blade is long-lived... does he not recall his own childhood? ]
Even your memories of waking up in this mansion. Is that a vague impression as well?
[ He wants to know—does it extend to recent memories too? ]
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[ Blade goes quiet because Lan knows how long it's been before someone has said that (literally never, actually) and he doesn't care to bother to say things like 'don't pity me' because he's more of a depressed man than a prideful one. ]
I remember waking up.
...Because of your reaction. It sticks with me.
Though, after what happened today, what some people have said I can barely recall.
[ He definitely had an unfortunate episode that affected his recollection of today's events, so it can effect recent memories...debilitating mental episodes for the win. ]
I might recall it better after some time.
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[ Honestly, he doesn't know! It's a little bit embarrassing to think about. ]
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[ Blade doesn't say anything here because it seems like he doesn't seem like the type to answer those questions normally.
But, his expression looks kind of amused to suggest an answer? Maybe? ]
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You are not supposed to be amused by it!
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Too late.
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Well... I suppose I would much rather see you amused than angry or upset.
[ He frowns, though it's not that serious. ]
Even if it happens to be at the cost of my dignity.
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[ Blade says so ever dramatically. This is your lot in life, G'raha. ]
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[ His frown quickly transforms into a little smile, and he has half a mind to elbow Blade in the side. ]
You’re a tad mischievous.
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[ Blade points out. Only to say: ]
The circumstances just made it easy.
[ He is not helping his case here he knows, but still...nah, he hasn't got nothing. This time. ]
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What, pray tell, are these circumstances? Your overall mood is certainly not like it was when we played cards.
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But, I think it would be better if you figured it out.
[ Blade simply says before walking towards him - then, walking by him, and moving to exit the observatory, putting an end to their chat for now.
...why is he like this. ]
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[ He’s a scholar, after all!!
But Blade leaves so all G’raha can do is call out after him. Wow, so mysterious… ]